interrupted

you want
 I tell you
   how
    quietly

pre determination

shall i pretend
that I woke up
Venus of the Universe
newly and completely formed
I arise, stepping into shoes worn
my first feelings of something
warm, sturdy

frustration- what is this calamity?
yet, I am imperial
every possibility is at my fingertips
creation and destruction
my strong points

Amoeba

this world overwhelming, challenging
defined boundaries I discover
inside, free to decide
only the flesh like walls
help hide what
my interpretations will split open

shedding skin

where am I going, from here
where shall I go?
will myself, overcome
with wonder overtake me
anhilate or recreate me

Movement, in E minor

Nocturne in E


Somewhere there is a hand that brings me closer
to that place that defies understanding, hope, fears, words

The Voice In The Shadows Of My Heart

"I never remember anything" she said "What if I grow up and forget how to get back?"
"It's ok" He replied "I have a plan."

Assauge: To Lessen the Intensity (Of Something That Pains)

every time i walk into this city
i wonder if you are near
i wonder if you're wandering like i do
or if you have a destination
i walk down crowded streets
looking over my shoulder
hearing my name called
with every passing gust of wind
i stumble over the sidewalks
as i strain to see inside
all the seventh storey windows
then, i am standing on a corner curb
and i'm not too sure
what i'm doing there
i am pushed and jostled
as i stand there
still
i want to see if i can catch
your scent in the wind
and i do
it blows past me
quickly
and i am startled
i bump into irritated strangers
as i whip my head around
trying to find you
i hear your voice
clearly and softly
close to my ear, saying
what are you looking for?
and then it's gone
and the old man to my left is staring
at me strangely
and the smells of burnt oil
and a densely populated city
are all that are left
and i want to pull
at the first person i see
hold them tightly around the collar
and ask them if they've seen you
i want to run into the cafes
and ask the poets if they can tell me
who it is you sing to
i want to go to the corner bakery
and ask the girl behind the counter
if you have ever been there
and if so
who do you buy the morning's coffee for
i want to assail the postman
and demand to know if the letters that you send have an address
or are they sent
to the dead letter office
i want to climb high into the trees
and sit with the birds
and listen to them chat and gossip
and find out if anyone comes
to your
apartment at night
to throw rocks at your window
i wait until late in the night
and crawl close to the moon
and ask her where it is
you hide yourself
i want wander the endless
empty streets of this town
until i find the goddess of dreams
and ask her
to please stop
sending you to me
if you won't say hello

antagony

an·tag·o·niz·ing

slightest provocation
what words
hurling through
the air is still
heavy, heart

Shadow Play

Please don't make me tell
What the world already knows
So well
My heart belongs to you
My love, it grows

I cannot hold on to what is not there
I let go, but still your voice I hear
I back away, convinced I am wrong
Allowing this pretense to go on so long

Midnight's Shuffle

sometimes
the you in my head
asks me
how I want to be loved
and the me in my head
shifts form, then
does a little shimmy
shrugs my shoulders, says
"any way you want to"
masking my curiosity
trying not to make
too much of what I want
taking tiny steps
patterned after ocean tides

Hidden

Don't want to number distances,
hurts, joys, the unknown
things between us

Don't want to go in
a direction that isn't right
left in circles

Don't want to invite desires
I cannot reach
drawing closer to edge

Don't want to do anything
that reminds me, out of control
of you expanding me

Don't want to forget
pulling me up and open
now afraid to look or remember

Don't want to get lost
avoiding words, adrift, see
your light won't dim

Don't want to face
the emptiness I lost, you know
I touched your grace

Don't want to stay away
if you need me, near
but I tear the skies apart

Structure

It's safer inside
Where I don't have to
Watch my language
Worry about how
Someone else interprets
My coarse tongue
Points at you
Refusing to hide
Even if I do

No Comment

you will be safe, hidden among them
then one day, you look into
someone's eyes
see they do it too

If I Stop Running I Fear I May Die

There is nowhere to look back at, if you're pacing in circles.
I grow weary of the roundabout ways my heart travels to reach a place I may be dreaming up.

What is off this beaten path?

Risk and Chance

if my dreams were something I could share
I would not be watching the flames rising
around the edges of all I have built from emptiness
-this is the price I pay when my heart doesn't stop to look, to taste
go back again, die trying
when it silently divides from one into two

the divine is not mine to give
it is all around us, in between us
its face cannot be hid
i fear explaining the inexplicable
i cannot see what is
mine, yours
all I know is
this light
changes
every thing

Duality and the Fool

one, two
one two
there is little of me
and it's all for you

Fact or Fiction

My instinct throws up its hands
Refuses to spell it out
Grumbles over my foolishness

I go against it, nothing to prove
Except how little I know
How arrogant my assumptions

My love, I presume

One hundred replies
an infinite amount of ways to take it

I am overwhelmed
you burn up the silence

together we fall
instead of flying

Over the Edge

Which words does water use as it's falling?

the universal eye

I watch some time slowly dissolve my self
 find it does funny things to my brain, skin and

other things wash over me like sand and sea
my thoughts turn into sugar, pass through my body
like sweat, tears, and blood, love

there isn't bitterness, but like charcoal
 in your mouth, a darkness that cannot be described

memory negligently sheds its skin
 being present, I breathe slowly just going

arrive in this world, awaking every three seconds
always with that world in the blood of my veins
clinging, living, touching everything

Like A Deer In Headlights

but freedom of movement is no simple thing
there is no halfway

the distance between us is like a wrinkle in time

wind blown kisses

I reach for you and pull back
afraid of the way the air feels so vast and empty on my fingertips

Movement

In one hundred words or less
I try to explain
that feeling you give me
I just can't get away from
fizzing in my blood, stretching my skin
I am all eroticism and cold outer space
the wild, chaotic bloom of revolution
you are the earth, the air, the water, the howl
I walk up to the edge and stand still
You don't have time to wait, go on without me
I careen between bliss and confusion
Following the hard way, still
I cannot escape your voice
your fingerprints burned onto my thigh

two shadows look as one

winter is for skating in the dark, in the quiet
passing the thoughts and pictures, the memories
life of the mind reflecting
the ice and snowdrifts

there is no stillness, here
save the freeze
but even that gives and takes
a life of its own

loneliness is abolished, there
are no ghosts, no darkness that cannot be lit
fleeting
as the crack of dawn, faster than
breaking ice

solitude reigns over the communion
of naked trees and a solid sky
over beings made with water and air

no fear of birds crying in the night
lo, they only encourage
keep going

the message never spoken
only heard, is what
what makes us
all unite

on wanting what you need

Ten Days: Day Ten

Day Ten: 
One confession

Ten Days: Day Nine

Day Nine:
Two smileys that represent how you are feeling

Ten Days: Day Eight

Day Eight:
Three Turn Ons

Ten Days: Day Seven

Day Seven: 
Four Turn Offs

Ten Days: Day Six

Day Six: 
Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Ten Days: Day Five

Day Five: 
Six things you wish you’d never done.

Ten Days: Day Four

Day Four: 
Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Case of The Mistaken Heart

Ten Days: Day Three

Day Three: 
Eight ways to win your heart.

 

Please, use your inside voice

Have you ever woken up and realized that you had left your body and were in the middle of Time and Space?

That is how I always feel.