awakening

I think I have been dreaming of you
again
I prefer to believe
this is not what has been keeping me up
nights are quiet, I don't feel the need
to explain, or understand or plan
what is happening is larger than me
alone, this is absolute impossibility
we will never be alone, but
god, this loneliness
just restless ambition
masked desire
need, to protect

I want to reach out and touch you
I must realize I've been dreaming
The stitches rip as I open my eyes

It is so easy to lose the words
for what I see, I hear, I long to tell
yet so easy
to spot that look in someone's eyes
they roll slightly back as the reality
fumbles, lost in the chaos
between here and there, where
every day things demand
attention, what did you say?