you dance with me, at arm's length
keeping me, just inside your personal space

stay in time with me, I will follow if you lead

I had a dream, built on places I had grown in

when I tried to write it
it was shuffled away, out of my control
now I'm afraid to write it a second time

but, everything

"My chest contracts and expands until I feel I will burst or be torn in two. I feel I am being swept away by something, over which I have no control. Back and forth, back and forth like the tides."


"I believe they call that symptom of life, breathing."

open vessel

god isn't allowed to want
unlike me, so dependent on needs

some people don't like water,  some are in the middle of the ocean

the only thing i really knew were the possibilities as they were presented to me, the moment i opened my eyes and reached out for you
i know i want to feel you and keep feeling you

i heard a person would go mad if they knew what god knew
i heard that we'd go mad if we looked at god directly
only one of those things is true

now? now is my what then.
and I don't know. I'm still trying not to panic.

A Gentle Violence

We fear more than just criticism.
We fear indifference; we fear the
obligatory words offered.
We fear being pulled into
a freely given smile, only to
wake up in its cold emptiness.

We don't fear the physical abuse
of a friend or a lover as much as
we fear the incalculable hurt of
finding one's self woven into the
uncaring flesh of another heart.

where angels fear to tread

I feel I am intruding, but my heart is drawn in. "Closer, closer now."

and if we never looked each other in the eyes when we spoke, would we know the truth when we heard it

Let me ask you something.
If it's true, I once hurt your heart
and you went after revenge...

Am I dead yet? Has the carcass
satisfied you?
Most likely not; though
I'm afraid you've had your fill and I
am but one of a pack.

Carving Space from the Stones of Time

there should be a place for you and I
 walls built high enough to keep everyone else out
secret pass through, words meant for us alone
we could drift out of dreams
speaking only about what matters
drawing each other out

It's true that there is an ache in my cunt for you

But the worst of it is in the flesh around my heart

It's in my hands that long to touch you and do for you

It's in my feet that long to carry me to you

There is a tenderness that stays with me
long after you have gone

Akin to pain, but a fragile joy

That fiercely clings to my insides

The whole of my being imprinted

There are days I know I could fly if
I just take a running leap

Windows Of My Soul

Skin lies, my love

Arms, they lie too

hands, skin, tongues, kisses... all liars

But, eyes

The eyes never lie

And Then?

I want to be cruel, lover, I will push you
Until you go away, you shall have no desire
For me, my love I want to hide
Unburden yourself of the discord, confusion
Do not stay, where my heart still sinks
Beneath the weight of you, the world echoes
What I have to say, you must come too close
To hear, you shall certainly get burnt

What am I willing to give of myself

dreams are meant to help us
carry our best wishes into solid being
hand over hand, I circled, you behind me
what you said, I thought, I heard,
all through the nothing
desires are what make us wake up
look at ourselves and scream
keep going don't stop, don't look back,
what do you know, in order to know
do you have to go down

Whale of Time

this one's for your dreams, one for mine
here is for what we want, and best wishes
for what we redefine

interrupted

you want
 I tell you
   how
    quietly

The Voice In The Shadows Of My Heart

"I never remember anything" she said "What if I grow up and forget how to get back?"
"It's ok" He replied "I have a plan."

Hidden

Don't want to number distances,
hurts, joys, the unknown
things between us

Don't want to go in
a direction that isn't right
left in circles

Don't want to invite desires
I cannot reach
drawing closer to edge

Don't want to do anything
that reminds me, out of control
of you expanding me

Don't want to forget
pulling me up and open
now afraid to look or remember

Don't want to get lost
avoiding words, adrift, see
your light won't dim

Don't want to face
the emptiness I lost, you know
I touched your grace

Don't want to stay away
if you need me, near
but I tear the skies apart

Don't Dream This

I want you to fill my mouth with your desires, your ideas and

with my tongue I shall give it all back, and then some

Blinded by the Light

Just when I thought I saw, I plunged, into darkness
it's hard to believe in what you can't see past your peripheral vision
walk carefully, forward, nothing is known

What Will Guide You?

If I was brave I'd take myself into the desert for several days; not to find myself, but to let go, listen and reconnect.