lost and found

The heart does not play tricks on anyone, but it is susceptible to tricks being played upon it. Especially the more open the heart is to finding what it is looking for, because of its willingness to enter into the unknown.
-unknown

But, that's just it
my dear, my darling
 You don't have to do anything
with my love at all
Take it or leave it
 Occasionally pull it
out of your back pocket

Wonder
 or not

The Grey Areas

All I ever wanted was the chance to reach out, touch you,
feed the wild, roaring flames of your flesh,
soothe the places your imagination can't run from.

Chances are, it's what I need, too.

Doubt

Let me show you more
Let me set your soles
Alight this broad path

Let me give you space
Time and closeness, this must be
Wide-eyed, open and grasping
Let us touch the static around us

With great pomp and in strange
Circumstance, we will open
The floodgates
For what meaning shall sound

Let me stand beside you
Face to face with the joy, the pain
Let no one ever forget
The importance of little things

Breathe words into this life
Sing your heart to me

The Hours In Which Words Are Unwelcome

My hunger waits

until the darkest parts of the night

sneaking up, lurking by my door

I stare at the glass

Wondering what is a true reflection

And what my mind distorts

I reach out, pushing

until the breaking point

I insist on disbelief

Things cannot be rearranged

To my will; I watch

Hold back until too late

Do you need to touch to understand

What do you need to prove

Have you built everything

in order to command

your will, the universe

Is yours...

I had it all and lost myself

in your atoms

It's true that there is an ache in my cunt for you

But the worst of it is in the flesh around my heart

It's in my hands that long to touch you and do for you

It's in my feet that long to carry me to you

There is a tenderness that stays with me
long after you have gone

Akin to pain, but a fragile joy

That fiercely clings to my insides

The whole of my being imprinted

There are days I know I could fly if
I just take a running leap

Windows Of My Soul

Skin lies, my love

Arms, they lie too

hands, skin, tongues, kisses... all liars

But, eyes

The eyes never lie

hold me down
I think I'm going to disappear

awakening

I think I have been dreaming of you
again
I prefer to believe
this is not what has been keeping me up
nights are quiet, I don't feel the need
to explain, or understand or plan
what is happening is larger than me
alone, this is absolute impossibility
we will never be alone, but
god, this loneliness
just restless ambition
masked desire
need, to protect

I want to reach out and touch you
I must realize I've been dreaming
The stitches rip as I open my eyes

It is so easy to lose the words
for what I see, I hear, I long to tell
yet so easy
to spot that look in someone's eyes
they roll slightly back as the reality
fumbles, lost in the chaos
between here and there, where
every day things demand
attention, what did you say? 

And Then?

I want to be cruel, lover, I will push you
Until you go away, you shall have no desire
For me, my love I want to hide
Unburden yourself of the discord, confusion
Do not stay, where my heart still sinks
Beneath the weight of you, the world echoes
What I have to say, you must come too close
To hear, you shall certainly get burnt

Tango

I retreat
as you advance the distance
between us is measured
precise

rhythm
oh my blood calls to you
grab me, pull me close
pushing
the limits of this nameless
tension

increasing the fury of
these tangled steps we take

the hum of my heart is a lullaby from you, my dear
do you hear it strumming, feel my love so clear

The Mockingbird

You know
I don't need to tell you
You just like to hear it
Everyone needs to hear it
Often
You would like me to spell it out
Bring life to my hidden thoughts
I know you
Hold back

There are things I don't know
Things you refuse to share
For my safety, for my happiness
So I retain some modicum of faith
It's better that some things are
Left unsaid
I cannot cry, though drowning
Is imminent, death knows
All the prettiest things are only in the mind

These castles I've been dreaming
Only appear when I whisper in your ear

still I don't dare echo the shouts of my heart

"the clock has been stuck at three for days and days"

there's a lot of words in my head
and a frozen pizza in the freezer
but i don't feel like eating them
alone, it's so late why can't i
wake up, stay happy

A Part From Me

there is a space
just between my blood and bone
infinity resides
there is no peace
no solitude
only the tide
pulling back, rush
close to me again

I talk too much, my heart demands I take care with my words.
I weave, wildly between saying nothing and keeping silent
I take care to swallow only the most important words
I've seen what happens when they besiege me
every one I mean, but none the way I meant

What am I willing to give of myself

dreams are meant to help us
carry our best wishes into solid being
hand over hand, I circled, you behind me
what you said, I thought, I heard,
all through the nothing
desires are what make us wake up
look at ourselves and scream
keep going don't stop, don't look back,
what do you know, in order to know
do you have to go down

Movement

We are not always
Tandem
I sometimes see you rising
On my way down
I compose these poems
Inside my heart, all the words
Directed to you
There's nothing that can stop it
I look away and fall

Honestly

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The Things We Never Say

"I want to keep away your hurt"
she said, then
"I am going to kiss you with words."

simple words
is a play on words
as words are not simple
enough

Whale of Time

this one's for your dreams, one for mine
here is for what we want, and best wishes
for what we redefine

in the way

in my weakness I want you to love me
but it is my brave heart that knows
I'll never be the one for you

don't spare my feelings
I am always here for you
unconditionally

You may find it in the pauses, the search for the right word
the way a voice slows and catches when the brain connects the pain to the hollow phrase

And When I Believe

The universe breathes
a sigh of relief
I feel a calming wind
sweep through, my heart
silenced, brought upwards
Regaining balance
I return to myself with confusion

Power Chord

Gently it spits it out, it is full
charged, it goes!
Only, now waiting
to be plugged in again;
after all it's only a machine